This is the first Loveletter I wrote in order to share my heart with Him. He received my Loveletter and said "beautiful words."
I can no longer reject what my deepest truth is in Love. I am not ashamed to own that I have always wanted to be Loved by a man. I see now that this stemmed from a combination of growing up without knowing my Daddy, a belief system and the paradigm of my Mama's father abandoning her and her sisters at age 7. None of us had a model of the knowing of what it looks like and feels like to be in the company of a man held as important, a priority or as precious. To have a father or father figure who is active in the everyday life teaching, guiding and supporting a woman as she grows is something completely foreign to me. I am being with this experience now as an adult woman! Thank God it is never to late to make a new choice. What I have learned at the knee of this man, is that time and space make no difference in true Love. It always just IS. Being Loved doesn't matter if it can not be received or if it rejected. I learned the hardest lesson in that when I rejected him, I was really rejecting myself! It was a lesson on how to eat my own heart. We both paid dearly. I am forever grateful to him for Loving me when I didn't know how to Love myself.
